Could you all leave tumblr user str4ngemusic some kind things in her anon? She’s a good friend of mine and deserves to be happy. :) Also, if you like her blog, give it a follow! (She doesn’t have that many haha)
Hey guys. So I haven’t been able to go on tumblr in the past few months, I’ve been really busy with a lot of things. When I came back on here a few minutes ago, I saw all the anons you guys sent me before I attempted to commit suicide and realized how glad I am that it didn’t work. I love you all so much and I can’t believe that so many of you cared enough to leave me a few kind words of advice in my inbox. I’m recovering now, I’m being treated for depression and I’m starting therapy this week. For the first time in forever, I feel proud of myself for overcoming something, and I think OM&M would be proud of me too. I’m glad to be back.
I’ve decided that my time on this earth is nearing its end and that I don’t belong here. I’ve attempted suicide three times, and today I will follow through with it. Although I love OM&M endlessly, I am a shitty person and I don’t deserve to live. I don’t deserve to have 1.1k followers. I don’t deserve the privelege to have even discovered such an amazing band. I want all of you to know how much I care and appreciate you. Each and every one of you. I wish I had gotten to know you better. I also want every member of my favorite band to know how much they’ve impacted me. Alan, Aaron, Austin, Phil and Tino. You’ve all saved me from so much and made the few happy times in my life a lot better. I’ve looked up to you since day one and in my last thoughts you are present. I cannot thank all of you enough. I apologize for letting you down and going through with my death, but I need to do this. I want everyone around me to have a better life. I don’t want to be a burden to anyone. Life was made for happiness, and that is something I have yet to reach. If anyone would like to say goodbye to me, just leave me something in my inbox or on anon. Maybe I could enjoy the last few hours of my life. I love you all so much.